Is Life just beginning or ready to End?

WHEN THAT TIME BEGINS................

So why am I here writing? I am asking myself this question as my thoughts start to wonder, what the hell is going on with my body right now!

It started at the tender age of 38 when I made a profound life change decision to have a hysterectomy, it was my decision and a positive one at that, I knew this would be my last attempt to have a happy life without severe periods pains, heavy bleeding (which will cause Iron deficiency anaemia) feeling fatigue, hormonal imbalance (where I would experience depression, mood swings and changes in appetite) which I would call a monthly intake of experiencing a series of Jekyll and Hyde, it was constant and it didn't feel good. 

I also had cancer cells in my cervix (stage 2) in my 30's however they caught it early and was able to have it removed, this gave me a great scare and I feared it would one day come back so my decision to have the operation was a difficult but important one to make.

I would feel positive and life was good running up to two weeks, then suddenly everything would change, I would become sensitive, very emotional, angry and at times wanted life to end which was very concerning to me after all I had two children to look after.

I tried eating healthing, exercising, Acupuncture, Reiki, meditation and taking tablets for example Evening primrose and red clover. Nothing seemed to work for long however I do believe consistency is key but when you are dealing with fatigue running up to that time it was difficult to keep the consistency up.

So here I am today nearly 5 years in and going through the most biggest change of my life the Postmenopause (which is seen as the final stage), because I had a hysterectomy this meant the menopause started straight away, it was not messing about, it showed itself within months after my operation, in the beginning it was gaining weight, hot sweats, fatigue and aching of the bones, even though I was experiencing all these symptoms I was just happy my hormones seemed balance, no depression in sight or crying all the time, I felt like a winner. I would start herbal drops called female essence, they were great and worked wonders they took away the hot sweats so I could sleep well at night....." wohooo ain't I a lucky woman"  I thought lol, I felt great for the most of 5 years no needing to go on HRT (Hormone Replacement Therapy).

THEN IT BEGAN..............................

With this blog I wanted to share my journey with this vital change all women will go through in all different forms and ways. This is my journey which I hope can help other women, families, partners/husbands and by sharing health tips other women might not need to go through it like I have. I hope you get something from my weekly or daily diaries.....enjoy.

Love Zoe xxx