Changes that come in life

Thursday 24th May 2018

When changes come, sometimes it is showing life is ready to take a new direction but for that to happen action has to be taken.

This day felt like the worse day, I was crying for the whole day and felt down, I didn't understand as life was beautiful, the children were healthy, my relationship was good, finances were growing well, I had nothing to feel down about or was I just losing my mind.

I looked back at the past year and realised I had been up and down, not wanting to see people or socialise and feeling very drained. With my eyes swollen (from crying the whole day) and feeling like crap I jumped in the car and started to drive to where I did not know.

I drove and cried, cried and drove nothing seemed to make sense why do I feel like this? why do I feel so down and alone?. I stopped the car in a side road and took some deep breaths I went through all my past situations with friends, family and my dyslexia business and realised I had been sensitive and very touchy for quite some time but still wasn't putting the puzzle together.

It suddenly came to me, go and speak to someone Zoe, I went to see my brother. I don't know when was the last time my brother saw me in such a state, he was waiting outside the door when I drove there concerned and worried, I dried my eyes and walked towards the door.

He made me a herbal tea and I sat and released all my emotions. talking has always helped me, it allows me to break things down and see things much more clearly, he just listened intensely, I spoke about everything I could think of that would make me feel this way, then it came to me THE MENOPAUSE 😕............" maybe it is the menopause" I said.

I explained I'd been going through the change for some years now but never like this, we agreed I would go and see the doctor just to see, if it wasn't the change then at least we could rule it out and continue searching.


Friday 25th May 2018

My eyes opened and I looked over at the time it was 5.15am I new I had to ring the doctors for 8am to try and get an appointment for that morning. I didn't feel any better so went and done some meditation to relax my mind. within that meditation a thought came to me " say it is the menopause what will you do?" I knew I didn't want this feeling any longer after all I had a family to think about and our fostering business, no way would I want to make our foster children feel uneasy because of my emotions at play, I decided there and then if it was the menopause showing itself in a different way I would try the HRT (Hormone Replacement Therapy). 

Now this would be a massive change for me as I never wanted to go on HRT as I prefered the natural remedies however I was willing to fear the change and do it anyway if it was going to make me feel better. I called the doctors and got an appointment for that afternoon.

I got to the doctors and, lo and behold it was what I expected the last stages of the menopause was taking its turn (a phrase I like to use lol). I was so relieved, I wasn't losing my mind or going crazy my Oestrogen was very low causing the symptoms I was experiencing.
I explained to the doctor I wanted to try the HRT, he said he would put me on a low dosage and see how it goes. I skipped out of the doctors feeling so happy then remembered Zoe you are an adult the skipping behavior is no longer for you but I didn't care I had the biggest smile on my face knowing I wasn't going crazy but changes was happening to my body.

Healthy Tips:
Vegetables to eat to help boost your Oestrogen levels
Chickpeas
Olives
Seeds
Nuts
Dried fruits
Galic
Kale
Green bean/Sprouts

Why not give it a try I am..............